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October 2005

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Today my mind is an absolute blank. I sat in bed and stared at the ceiling for hours last night and this morning. I hardly moved, I didn’t toss and turn. I just sat and wondered. I can’t believe I’m another year older today. And what I found myself doing was channeling all of the energy and all of the memories of past birthdays into my bed with me this morning. When I was a kid I would wake up early and come running out of my room ready for the day. When I grew older in college I usually slept off my birthday from the night before, or rested up for the night to come. And now…now it is officially like any other day of the year. Except it’s the date I use to identify myself to credit card companies, insurance agencies, and most frequently, the doctor’s office.

Speaking of which, I have had my hands full with my back. It’s one of those things I’ve put up with for the last 3 or so weeks. Every day it would hurt more and more as the day wore on, and every night I would get into bed and cringe at the pain from the previous day. Until last week when I decided enough was enough. So after we ruled out the possibility of a bleeding heart (or something of that catastrophic nature, to my disbelief), we walked away with some pretty fun muscle relaxants. But all they do is make me feel like I’m drunk, high, hung over and stoned all at the same time. Which really, isn’t a lot of fun when you have a life to lead. So first thing next week, when the schedule opens up, we’re going to take a closer look into this.

Because if my Birthday has taught me anything, it’s “today is the day”. It’s so much better than the New Year to make a resolution. It’s my own New Year. A New Year to work on keeping my body in shape, my arthritis in check, and my family and friends nearby. And once you graduate college, you realize alcohol doesn’t help you with that.

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

After a last-minute change in schedule, we returned home from Memphis today instead of tomorrow. Unfortunately, Hurricane Wilma was to blame for this disruption, as our Quarterback was stranded in Florida. We made the best of our time as a team, together, but all got dispatched home to our various cities shortly after. Oh well.

Tomorrow I am seeing a back specialist to get to the bottom of my back pain. I have gone through muscle relaxants like I was sampling cereal in aisle 4 of the supermarket - and I am not happy about it. For the first time (in my life, at least) I know what it feels like to be drugged up and "loopy" from these narcotics. And I hate it.

Not only do they not work well, but I'm faced with the problem of feeling so out of it I can't keep a straight face. I walk around on these muscle relaxants acting like (the late?) Ross Perot or the late Chris Farley. I'm either cooky or crazy! Which is why I am excited to get to the bottom of the problem instead of dealing with its side effects.

It would be nice to have an afternoon off of back pain. Weekends don't cut it anymore.